Well I have decided it is time to take a hard look at my life. I was let go from my job the other day, and the only reason given to me was "you don't fit in". Well ok what does that really mean? She praised my computer skills and told me I should really look into that line of work! Boring! Almost a week has passed and I have carefully thought about what it is I really want to do. I am 42, and my last child at home will be 18 very soon. I have the world at my feet. Go to law school or perhaps get my RN and help people. These all sound like wonderful things but right now I am just not feeling it. I have a strong desire that is moving me in a different direction.
I am a simple person. I don't need people to tell me how great I am or have that daily pat on the back. What I am and have always been is a person who enjoys living off the land and tending to Mother Earth. I love to garden, grow flowers and share my knowledge. I am not the sharpest tool in the shed, but have a sincere passion to become self sustainable. I don't want to rely on the markets for my food or become so consumed with "things" that I forget what I stand for. This is what I am going to consider "My awakening".
I am not sure what direction this is going to take me, nevertheless I am excited to get this party started.